Sunday, April 19, 2015

Alternatives





Alternatives

One poet said: I know/
            what it means to beget monsters
            and to recognize in them/
            myself. 

And that was the steep terrain
of his war.  And maybe, on days
his rifle was oiled he was still
and the prairie was flat and her grass
reminded him of home and the cliché
of the farmer’s daughter.  And maybe
when the bolt failed to retract, or when re-
loading wasn’t automatic or the pin
was in his teeth but the grenade ticked
its silent asthmatic sigh in the palm
of his hand the splay of his fingers, before his cinch
of fist, was a Gorgon, and he was looking
back to her face
in thanks that such reflections
don’t have the power
to turn him
mineral, that his own firm pushing
at the zipper would find its oiled warmth
somewhere and she’d want it
this time
and he’d want it
again and neither would be afraid.

But the other poet, considering Mary,
and how she could’ve said NO (because God’s not
a ravisher) and gone on her way
and another Virgin would rush
the stage like some Pentecostal call
to the altar instead.  (in who’s stead?  God’s
                        I suppose)
and she says, the poet: Aren’t there annunciations
                                    of one sort or another
                                    in most lives?...

                                    when roads of light and storm
                                    open from darkness in a man/
                                                or a woman…
And that was the steep
terrain of
her
combat.

But because any kind
of divining needs a pulse
and a stick, and we could shuff our shoes thin
waiting for it to drop straight down
we simply trade one monster for its egg
and refuse the brood
of warmth, refuse, even after that fantastic
ripplerippleripple in the grass, the spitting
of cells.  It’s destiny I suppose.  The doctor,
expert at intact dilation and extraction,
or the boy still holding the unpinned grenade…
We don’t know what it is that we’re holding
or what it is that we’ll toss
as nonchalantly as any deamon
trying on a new suit of clothes
and considering themselves
in the mirror for the first time,
the very first time
and calling what they see
by any other name than what it absolutely is.

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